May 7, 2013 21:40

Went to see Dr. Best today. I thought of rescheduling my 3:00 appointment, because I am in the most pain, headache wise, between the hours of say 14:00 and 19:00. The best reasoning I have come up with is the location of the sun. As I have been an overthinker since my early teens, I do not care for effects without causes and when something happens, I do whatever logical reconciling needed to decipher a cause; and thats the best I could come up with. Although I know my mother thinks I have spent over a year “being manipulative, and trying to get my way,” even though she [my mom] had no good explanation of what my end intentions were if what I was telling her was indeed not the truth. Back to today, usually my head cuts me a little break when I am due for an appointment and for some reason lesson hurts less. I held on and did not reschedule my 15:00 appointment. I am strangely paying for my persistance now. One usually hears about another’s persistance paying off, not about it being a negative consequence. However, my headache hasĀ  been especially bad since leaving the house at such an unfortunate hour.

  • headache
  • nausea
  • nodded off while typing this and began a completely unrelated narration in my head (disorientation)
  • I had to walk back into the bathroom to make sure I had hung up my towel; I had absolutely no memory of touching my towel once I got to my bedroom; I was wondering where my towel was. (Memory loss)
  • At my doctor’s appointment I choked on my words quite a few times! I couldn’t think of the right word to use, or I knew the word and couldn’t force my mouth to formulate the sounds, or I began saying the first part of one word and finished with the end of another word.

Positive things of the day:

  • no loss of balance
  • filled prescriptions with refills
  • got referral for new suboxone Doctor; one of them takes insurance!

I’m going to try to write in this as often as possible to keep track of my symptoms and hopefully soon, my progress to recovery!

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